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my real last name is suppose to be Chua, not Co. its a long story and im not going into the detail of it.

i use to believe there are monsters in my closet. until now, my closest have to be fully closed before i feel safe and i can get to sleep.

i didnt have much friends when i was little. i hated when the class had to pair up with someone. i somehow end up alone most of the time

my first drinking experience is when i was in grade 4. which was 6~7 years ago. i didnt know what alcohol was ..one guy said he'll bring 6 cans, one for each that was in our group.. and i just happily agreed to join them~~ i didnt know what was happaneing..we went to and old room on the corner of our school and drank. i remember the can, it was gold, a big red Q and at the bottom it says brandy. i didnt know why, but it felt so hard to swallow the damn brandy. i chcuked most of the can away..it made me feel hot..i thought i was gunna die.


i hate sluts or playboys. period.

oh when i got my period i thought i shitted myself..cause my stomach hurted so bad. but then i realized it was blood so then i went to my mum and cried...i didnt know waht period was..i thought i was gunna have it forever and gunna stop growing and like some scary shit. i mean..wtf blood from down there = freaky, specially when your just a little kid :(

my first crush was...i cant remember..the first person to ever liked me was Louie Karlo Ramos. it was like weird since i was only 8 or 9. everyone was like "oooo loouuiiee" i still hav "clarisse + louie" written in a heart in my old maths book. ill put a pic when i can find it again.

i have to admit..it gave me alot of courage and a sense of satisfactory over myself when guys liked me. the sad part is..i dont like them back o.o;; maybe.

i stole money from our office downstairs when i was like 7. i knew where they kept the money and i new there was alot of money. i stole money and put some in my mums wallet and gave some to our maids. i remeber putting them in and envelope saying its a christmas gift etc. i felt sorry for our maids, they get paid soo low...and i didnt know why we save the excess money when we can help others...but i kept some amount so i can buy some ducklings and keep them as a pet ~ yeah i was bad.....my granma caught me...........>.>

i use to eat super slow.i sat down the whole lunch time eating...my teachers put me in the corner of the room so i can still eatr even class has started. when i was little-er i use to throw up when i eat.

my favourite pass time is sitting down or being in some place where no one goes to much. where i can feel im far from everyone. yeah i love those places. specially when they r up some hill or something. i also like sittig down having starbucks at night night friends.

i use to be called tomboy too. cuase most of my cousins around my age are guys. my brothers are guys. i grew up with them and played pokemon, water guns running around chasing each other, ball games and toy cars that has remote controls ( i love them till now) and my relatives say im brave when trying new things. i liked to bake too..but my older girl cousins won;t let me. so...yeah o.o~ i also didnt like dresses cause yeah..it feels weird.

i can be a perfectionist...i redo things so that it looks better or is neater..like my books, my diary my photo albums etc. but they end up being messy

i like my hair when its half messy half neat.

people use to mock me cause my voice sounds like a guy's. yeah i dont like my voice. a guy told me they liked my voice...until now i really have no idea why. =_=....i cant sing too. i suck at it

i didnt start byuing my own clothes till i was 15~16...my mum bought them for me or chose them most of the time..
but now..im ADDICTED to shopping. i surprised my family and extended family cause of it x.x~

i use to have imaginary friends. lol~

I like someone for 5 years now..sigh. i wish they getthefuckoutofmymind.

i really wanted a big sister, whom you can tell every little things too and know they fully support you no matter what and they will listen... and you dont have to be embarrassed or feel liked they look down on you etc..like no worries~ im jealous of amy kim and caroline :] but same as peggy, she feels like a sister to me.

i love love. i love being in a relationship where everything is good. i mean who doesnt? its the best thing in the world..something i wish for. yeah..i like to be in a good relationship. i read it somewhere that it was a libra thing. liking to be around people.

not only did i have imaginary friends..i had imaginary dogs too. i really want a pet dog. sigh.